If I planned it out right...

it would have been awesome. Life is full of unexpected turns and if I knew before hand where I would have ended up I would have changed my path accordingly. "No use crying over spilled milk" my mom would say in her heavily toned Ilocano accent. This is my attempt to explain to you that I do have regrets. Without a doubt, if I could somehow go back in time and change a couple of things I would, but because this right now is reality I'm force to stay within my boundaries. As the years packed on to my seemingly endless journey of life, wisdom and knowledge has also accompanied it. Learning about myself and others has served not only as to bruise my ego but as well as to show me how my actions affect others. I've treated the worse people great and the greatest people awful, and for that I'm extremely sorry. But if I hadn't done that, I would not be where I am today. I read this book called "The Shack," and in it God said humans tend to live in the past and future but not in the present, where God is always. I will not lie, my relationship with God hasn't been great nor has it been existent for that past couple of months but I know he's there with open arms. Instead of dwelling on the past or my future, I've learned to concentrate on whats happening around me now. The past is full of mistakes, of which I'm not entirely satisfied with but I know had to be done in order to come to the lifestyle I have today. I have the greatest friends, sure we don't hang out all the time but I know they'll ALWAYS be there. I have the most supportive family. And last, but not least I now have found a purpose. Everything is finally coming into perspective and now I have a glimpse of what God wanted for me in the very beginning.